baked

melonbomb @ 2007-05-09T01:43:00

2007-05-09T00:49:57Z

It’s now been exactly 3 weeks since I gave up weed which I didn’t think id be able to do, so I though I should record this event. Some things ive noticed:

Good-
I now have a short term memory
I have an abundance of energy
I get more things done in the day
I can get out of bed before 10 without even trying
I have a lot more time to do things in the day
My chest doesn’t feel bogged up
Ive made some new friends
My language is more articulate
I’m having dreams again

Bad-
Can’t sleep for shit, I have too much energy and nothing to do with it
I get real bored when im not doing anything
Eating food is really dull
I spent lots/too much money entertaining myself
Ive acquired lots of pointless addictions: Pepsi, chewing gum, copious rollies
I never really feel satisfied/relaxed

The insomnia and the lack of satisfaction/relaxation are the things that are bothering me the most. I also believe these are main reasons for my heavy bud toking in the first place. While id say ive improved as a person, im not really sure if im any happier, I’m still unsatisfied with life. I’m not sure exactly what’s missing but I can’t find it.

Ive decided that im still going to not smoke because I don’t really feel that it’s the answer, but im determined to find it. I think having a girlfriend might be the answer, but then again I can’t seem to find anyone I actually want to be with. I keep meeting girls I think might be worth it, but then again they all begin to bore me or arnt worth the effort.

Floraday was a big let down. I didn’t really see the point to the thing, there wasn’t really any atmosphere despite the volume of people or anything to do there. It just seemed to be a big collection of food stalls and not much else. Ate a nice pasty but I do that most days anyway.

I feel like I have a hole in the back of my mouth from coughing so much and im beginning to wonder if this cough will ever leave my system. If it’s still around next week im gonna give up smoking because im not sure I can deal with it much longer. I didn’t think I could give up weed, but im almost certain this will be much harder.

I’m really not tired and not sure how im going to keep myself from going insane with boredom tonight.

Started building a remote control plane today but I can do anything more until I receive a new controller board as I fried the old one by not paying attention when reconnecting it to the battery.

melonbomb @ 2007-05-07T03:00:00

2007-05-07T02:31:42Z

Some time has passed since my last post, but ive been pretty busy and spending lots of money.

Went out on Thursday with the usual crew and got pissed, town was dead but we went to Finns where we played jenga and then shades. Shades was all but empty and I though that wed own it for the night, half and hour later and the place was rammo. It was seriously hot and packed. Good night but I don’t remember much as I was well pissed, the end got confusing.

Spent most of Friday sitting in the sun trying to prise my mind back from the hangover and getting me a decent tan on. I’m well dark now. Went on a mission and did a round trip to uni and then to adsa to make myself a new t shirt. Ended buying a hoodie as well while I was there. Seem to find myself in asda quite a lot recently. My hoodie is a large child’s size which made me chuckle. I suppose I pretty much am a large child.
Went out again that night with ladies which was fun. Waterman’s to start, then a dance to some jazz/soul/funk band in M.i. bar which was good. Some twat got me and mia wet by throwing a drink all over our seat because he took some form of dislike to me. Then his mum had a go at me because I was a bit pissed off with him, we had some words and I think he got really embarrassed that he did anything. His mum looked pissed off with him by the end. Went to rems, got more pissed.
Mia made me an Emily have a serious chat, which I wasn’t really into because I was quite drunk and that’s never the best time to have serious talks. Don’t really know how it turned out, but at least Emily knows how I feel now.

Spent Saturday mainly hanging with Rich. Had a good laugh but we didn’t succeed in buying a gun. I ended up buying this dope ivory bracelet that was a little pricey but totally worth it. Barely fits over my hand hurts like a bitch to take on or off. Love it though.

Went to this weird circus party that night. It had real weird atmosphere there and I think everyone was in a bit of an odd mood. Still had some fun though. This bloke I know tried to tongue me which was odd and unexpected, so I had to tell him to fuck off, and then this weird annoying girl that nobody knew wouldn’t leave us alone. Didn’t have any booze because I left it too late but yet I still managed to get really pissed. Got stopped on the way home cuase I was doing nun chuck moves with a cane and the police though I was up to no good.

Didn’t do much today, just ate some nice food for breakfast, chilled, ate a nice pizza then went round scis for a bit. Watched Wayne’s world and some lee Evans. Saw max for a little while and played some snes.

This week is going to be work heavy cause we don’t have much time left to make our documentary. We have to pull it all together this week so we can edit and mess around with it next week.

I’m looking forward to floraday on Tuesday, but I just hope I have enough money to keep going, im having a lot of fun at the moment, but I don’t think the money is going to last this week, and going to Brighton at the weekend. Parent’s arnt likely to help me out so I might have to beg the bank/get a credit card. I don’t like that at all so job hunting is also on this week.

melonbomb @ 2007-05-02T02:17:00

2007-05-02T01:38:28Z

Today was quite fun. Woke up feeling awful after going to remedies and getting real pissed. I was already feeling ill and I don’t think going out helped. Didn’t have a particularly good night as I had other things on my mind and didn’t really feel like being there, but I was bored and needed to do something. I really can’t bare to sit around at home. A lady from last week kept badgering me, but I don’t really know how to tell her im not interested without being horrible, but yet she doesn’t seem to get the message.

On the way home I decided it was a good idea to go around to Emily’s and have a chat. Unfortunately I decided that my method was to throw gravel at her window to attract her attention, but I just scared the hell out of her. Thought Id pissed her and Rosie off, but they seemed to think it was quite funny when I saw them today.

The cough and sore throat I had yesterday elevated and became really painful. I couldn’t talk when I woke. Went to the shop just after waking to get a shit load of fruit in an attempt to rebuild my ruined body and I think it helped. As the day went on I got better, but I had a mad couple of hours when I was at Rich’s house. I hope its gets better tomorrow because im fed up of not being able to talk properly and coughing continuously. I’ve even considered quitting smoking fags cause ive already managed to go 12 days without weed and I didn’t think id be able to do that. I can’t really see myself going back now as im perfectly happy as I am.

Ended up at uni 2 hours early, but luckily Rich had done the same thing so we hung out in the sun with other uni people which was quite fun, but the whole time my throat was going mad which made me unhappy. I think it’s all the tar that normally lines my innards finding its way out from my system.

I’m concerned about our documentary because nothings really getting done and I don’t know what to do about it. Im sure it’ll be ok, but if nothing gets done then it’s just not going to happen.

Barry’s lecture was quite good but once again my throat just made me feel shitty and I couldn’t concentrate. I spent more time trying to not cough than anything else.

Went to Gilly beach, but even though the sun was full on, the wind made it inhospitably cold so we left fairly soon. Ended up going to Rich’s house with scarlet in his amazing car. I discovered the wonderful rush of hanging out the roof of a covetable car at high speed. Spent the afternoon chilling and shooting stuff with an air rifle.

Went to Truro to play bowling which is a game ive never been very good at, but it was fun. I really want to keep the bowling shoes, they made me feel like Michael Jackson and I couldn’t help but jive around on account of their tres slippery soles.
Didn’t really want to go home because it was a bit early for me and I get so bored sitting around there by myself, but luckily Emily invited me round for some tea which gave me something to do. Rosie was lovely and caring, giving me some kind of crazy magic honey tea and some delicious vitamin C tablets for my cough.

The drive back from Truro was a laff, did the whole hanging out the roof of the car again, but this time took it a bit farther, we were going faster and I was hanging upside down, hands free, and one point hands and feet free. What a sensation.

Don’t know where I stand with lady, but im pretty sure she knows how I feel, so whatever happens happens. Either way I like hanging out with her so im not too bothered.

I need more money. There are too many things I want to do, and not enough money to pay for it all. Next week ill begin job hunting, but ive got no idea what someone like me can do around here without breaking my back and earning bugger all.

I’m starting to enjoy writing in this thing; it’s nice to record your days.

Almost full moon, im not going to sleep well for a couple of days.

i dont butter my bread, its almost cooking

2007-04-30T03:25:03Z

Well well well. Its been a very interesting couple of days. Went to shades on Wednesday and got wasted which was fun. Then again, im not sure if it was Wednesday or Thursday. It was either shades or rems, but whatev. Had some dirty fun after woods but my memory of the whole thing is a little sketchy. Did pretty much the same thing the next day too. I went to Phil Mitchell’s m.i bar which sucked. Supposedly it was Britpop night which could have been good, but the bloody DJ had fuck all music. I and sci had the gall to up there and criticise him while dissing all his music. I think we hurt his little DJ dream but you shouldn’t call it Britpop if you don’t have any to play.

Friday was Emily’s sailor party. I was quite looking forward to it, but I was a little concerned that she was seeing some bloke and I knew it was going to get on my nerves. Luckily I think I alpha maled his arse and he was being a moody bastard. Had a great time, a lot of fun. I think it was the combination of great people that made it so good. I was pretty shocked by how homophobic people in Newquey was, but then again it is a chavvy place, I was dressed as a sailor and I dance a bit like a gay so what can I say. Woke the next day and everything ached.

I love Emily’s mum, she so nice and makes excellent tea.

Went into town for a bit with lady, bought some nice things and had a drink in watermans. I got a cool lighter/cigarette case which is nice and classy, and a lovely bracelet for lady.

Ended up going to woodlane BBQ and shades yet again because supposedly some dick threw a glass at a bouncer and we weren’t allowed into remedies. Had another fun night, got drunk, split up Emily and her bloke which I felt a bit bad about. But then again it’s not like im some bastard who came along and stole her, he wasn’t treating her well and he lost her. Dunno how pissed off he is with me or if I should be expecting some form of retribution, but unless he tries to stab me or something I cant imagine anything bad can happen.
Taxi home was funny, the taxi driver was a full on prick and went apeshit when we told him I had to run in and get some money cause we didn’t have it all. It was right next to the bloody house FFS. Dickhead.

Spent all Sunday soaking up rays in the garden with hes and Kate, relaxing and trying to forgot my accumulated monumental hangover. Got a bit of a dirty cough but im feeling good now, the tan is full on as well. Had a nice pizza and later I whipped up a nice curry cause I was fucking starving.

Got into some conversation about what if the world was flat and ended up thinking about it for far too long. Makes a change for girls to not be the only thing on my mind, which it predominantly has been for the last week. My body has woken up from being stoned for the last 3 years and im feeling really good. Sleep is still interesting but it’s a lot easier with a bit of romance.

Spent a lot of money this week, but im not bothered about it, totally worth it. im gonna chill with the spending this week but ive gotta go out tomorrow night and sort shit out. Going to have to find a job so that I can live and still blow some cash in the summer.

Made another t shirt, its looks great, shame the damn pen ran out just before I finished.
Tomorrow should be an interesting day, I hope I don’t have to do too much work or get a fine for not taking that minidisk back to uni on time. Im just gonna bullshit about the shitty batteries being the problem. Hopfully it’ll be warm and I can add another layer to my mahogany complexion.

wasnt going to post this but its one of those photos that could never have been set up, feel a bit dodge cause i know i would have been fucked off in his position.

melonbomb @ 2007-04-25T04:28:00

2007-04-25T03:42:42Z

Oh god what is there to say of the last couple of days. Life’s been quite good to be honest. Got a bit of a tan going on, been getting drunk quite a lot.

Went to Rems on Thursday and got wrecked again. Good night, but rather average. Don’t remember how I got home but I think I got a taxi with some people.

In the shower I found that my weird scalp condition had developed a large orange scab, need to go to the doctor but they expect you to book your appointment for that day between 8 and 9. I understand their probably well busy which is why they do it, but for fuck sake its tres inconvenient. Now I have to wake up early tomorrow to ring the surgery.

Decided to stop smoking bud for a while. So far the change has been a positive one, although I miss the restful stoned sleep, which allows me to feel human again when ive had a couple of bad nights sleep. I find myself staying up late every night at the moment. I find it impossible to go to bed before 5 or 6 in the morn unless vie been out on the piss. Trying to keep myself entertained so I don’t feel the need to smoke any, and its going pretty well. However im fiending my way through rollies, but I can sort that out later.

Went to Sci’s birthday party on saturday which was fun. His mum and dad were there which I thought was a bit odd, but Merrydown had its influence and I ended up having a good wag with them. As usual lots of weird things happened once the merrydown had its filthy way with my body. I swear that stuff has some kind of secret entheogen going on in there because when I drink that stuff Its not like being drunk, its bends my mind in curious ways. I think im going to limit myself to drink 3 bottles now, 4 seems to send me over the edge. Fell down some stairs when I was absent minded but it wasnt that bad, just slightly sore elbows the next day.

Went round Max’s old house for BBQ and poker. But to be honest the poker all looked to be a bit serious and I don’t really know what im doing, so I ended up playing some flying game on the wii which was fun, but I reckon if I owned I get bored of within days. Far too repetitive. The BBQ was pretty nice, the sausages were absurdly large but they tasted good.

Spent a couple of hours drawing a t shirt with permanent marker. Came out really well, although I spent far too much time on it. I hope the pen lasts, but I don’t reckon it’ll survive a wash very well. Doesn’t really matter though, the shirts only cost £2. Felt a bit weird buying the shirts at asda as it was really busy and I was in my usual regalia. I felt like people kept looking at me and wondering why i was buy clothes from george.

Went out on Monday to Rems again. Rems is beginning to become a bit of a habit, albeit a fun one. Usual fare, got drunk again, spoke to lots of people who names are lost within the infinity of my scatterbrained memory, was in photos when I don’t remember anyone having a camera, and don’t remember how I got home. Good night. For some reason fell asleep in Kates room, no idea why, when i got in i was in automatic find sleep mode.

Had a lecture today which was actually quite entertaining. I like Barry, he’s the only lecturer I don’t mind listening to. He’s a bit lax, but whatever, he talks some good stuff and he’s a nice bloke. Played some table tennis with Max, chatted for a while in the stanary, and had a nice heavy discussion with Sophie about why I think spirituality is a load of bullshit. Its fun to read and think about, but taking this stuff seriously is a load of crap. I like talking to Sophie, she’s good at discussions and doesn’t crumble or avoid confrontation. I hate that in most people. You should say what you believe because what you say is a direct representation of who you are. I don’t care if I think your wrong or not, I just like talking and learning new things.

Might go and get my nose pierced tomorrow, but I dunno if ill get around to it to be honest. Might also get some soil for some plants but that also might get forgotten about.

I fucking hope its sunny tomorrow and not raining all day like today.

I wonder how everyone in Maidstone is.

melonbomb @ 2007-04-21T06:12:00

2007-04-21T05:40:24Z

The weather is on, the sun has his jazz hat out and the bees are about. Spent most of Thursday enjoying the sun and doing stuff outside. Started to put on a layer of colour and my body hair has started to change to blond
Made a mission to asda with Max to get materials for a fat curry. Max cooked the curry and Sophie and moi helped. Bloody nice.
Was feeling great and went out.

Went to waterman’s and remedies and ended up getting stinkin drunk again. Some band called glass shark were on at remedies but I don’t remember ever actually seeing them because I was so fucked. The parts I do remember were good, but I woke the next day feeling like my brian had spent the evening flipped on its side and jangling around loose in my head.

Spent today milling around Falmouth and in the pub for a bit. Got a bit bored to be honest. The emergence of fit girls triggered by warm weather and general boredom has lead me to be constantly on ze girl charm offensive. But I couldn’t really satisfy my desire because I was stuck in boring pub. I’m also a bit bored of hanging around with the same people all the time so im trying to be somewhat more sociable.

Documentary research is thin on the ground but im sure the pressure of deadlines next week and the re-emergence of Rich at some point will revitalise the group’s enthusiasm.

Havant slept much recently and it’s catching with me a bit. Ive been on the piss most days and when I haven’t ive been staying up late drawing in flash/stoned and then getting up early cause the weathers good. i have been improving drawing, im getting alot quicker, and a while ago i would never have thought i could draw this well with a mouse.

I’m thinking about not smoking any weed next week and just spending money on stuff I never spend money on. Need to get hair cut, might get some bling, clothes, and im toying with the idea of getting my nose pierced just for the hell of it. never really considered it before but I think it might be an interesting novelty.

found this weird magazine in a little shop which i couldnt get out of my head after id seen it and had to buy. theres just somthing very alluring about this damn woman heh. im yet to actually read any of it, but it looks to be a load of bollocks.

melonbomb @ 2007-04-18T05:47:00

2007-04-18T05:06:01Z

Treated uni with the luxury of my presence for the first time this term. It was ok, the standard fair. Sat around for a bit, listened to all the boring bollocks I could bear and ignored the rest. Didn’t smoke any weed till late in the day which is unusual, time went very slow and getting there early didn’t help me from smoking loads of rollies. I can deal with not being stoned, but I think I have a horrible addictive personality which always seeks satisfaction.

Found this cool Mario kart advert after playing it for a while.

Went out Monday night and got mind drenchingly steamed. Started sometime after uni with Max down at the stars, but then we went back to mine, had a smoke, drank more then headed for town. Ended up at the consciousness and perception free zone formerly known as remedies, and got far too drunk. Don’t remember much and creaked back to life in the morning partially clothed and wondering how I go there. Good night, but I wish I could have been somewhat more aware of what had been going on.

I was on getting drunk again tonight, but in the end I decided I didn’t really want to, which enables money to be available later in another period of time. Ended up chilling and not doing very much. Spent the late hours messing with some t-shirt designs.

ferrafluids are fucking cool

Ross Noble is funny.

Life without daily parent’s intervention is bliss.

cant really sleep tonight, dont feel the need to rest and im far too awake to attempt to go to sleep.

Pig Pong

2007-04-15T17:52:04Z

Made back into Cornwall in record time. Left my house in Maidstone at 1:00 and arrived in Penryn at 5:00. A ridiculously long day. I find it really strange jumping from one life to another. There was a really attractive stewardess on the plane of some kind of European descent. That made the flight somewhat more enjoyable.

Had some heavy discussions that night with mes housemates and played a selection of vintage games. However a small tennis set has become my new object of obsession, the reaction of foam balls against plastic bats is very satisfying.

Somehow ive managed to spend a lot of money very quickly again. I’m not sure how this happens really. I’ve only been here for a couple of days and yet ive already found ways to waste lot of money. Most frustrating.

I’m supposed to be making a documentary this term, but so far my group hasn’t got a topic for said documentary. This presents a problem because tomorrow we have the present our proposal. I’m confident in my ability to bullshit, but I’m a bit concerned that it’s going to look a little transparent.

The first thing I did when I got back to ze Cornwall was to check how my poppies are doing. They’ve germed nicely alougth the distribution isn’t as even as I would like. I think I need many more seeds for the given area. Here was me thinking 3000 was enough! I’ve noticed that there is a higher concentration of seedlings on rougher areas of soil. I wonder if that is because the seeds on the flat soil got blown away, or if they the seeds roots can penetrate rough soil easier, or if rough soil holds more water necessary for germination better. Next time I will try to rough the entire surface of the soil.
I look to forward to hopefully seeing them pop up in the next few sunny weeks.

Some giant sandcastles exploding and filmed backwards in slow motion:
Id love to do this with a giant jelly mold.

packing day

2007-04-11T13:25:49Z

Yesterday was so so, had an argument with mes parents which was right on time for me going back to uni. The evening was looking to be pretty dull. Didn’t have any plans or chenyan to fund the usual Tuesday night of debauchery.

Ended up going round Daves to chill, but we found ourselves drinking a bottle of wine and smoking some joints into a happy place that couldn’t be left indoors. Going out was fun, and for once I wasn’t steaming drunk, didn’t get in a fight or kiss some girl I don’t know. Not much happened but merry times were had. Ended up leaving Daves in the daylight and coming home to my still pissed off mother eating her break-fast.

Somehow I’m gonna have to try and convince my parents to cancel my flight back to uni so me and the Dave can drive back to uni instead. Which would be a lot more fun, and I can bring things with me. I don’t know how well that’s gonna go down, especially given the current climate. No idea if we loose any money.

Got stuck playing Gamma Bros for a while

Came across these amazing videos of parades in North Korea, the changing picture is 100,000 people holding up cards. If anyone tried to orchestrate something like that in England everyone would end up going for a fag or flat out tell them to fuck off. No one could be arsed. But then again were talking North Korea here and this is finely tuned communist propaganda, and to be frank it does scare me a little. At the moment were attacking various Middle East countries who have little power to rebel against our military machine. These guys on the other hand might not have the hardware, but I certainly can’t see Pyongyang falling quite as easily as Baghdad with an army in tow like that.

Gotta to do shitty packing, I can’t be arsed with that shit. I want a mahousive trunk I can just throw everything into and get my servant to carry. Unluckily I’m not a rich Victorian gent and don’t have such luxury.

long time no post

2007-04-09T17:56:40Z

found this journal hidden away in an old favorites folder, and thought, what the fuck, i might as well document the things that happen in my life, because moi memory is tres fooked. If anything, it might be at least useful. Im gonna try and write something here a couple of times a week from now on.

Easter once again has returned and passed, Jesus is still dead, and im back in the end of holiday limbo. The couple of days before returning back to uni are always busy and load of effort, but itl certainly be nice to get back down country and away from the repression of living with parents. Its going to be lovely to cook my own food and smoke joints in bed again, ah the joy.

Went round my brothers last night which was entertaining, ate too much food, chatted, had some beers, and then proceeded to walk to Daves and get toasted. Didn’t really feel that tired but I remember being completely stoned on some great bud, ended up leaving at about 6 and got home at some evil hour. The sun was full on, lovely, but not when you’ve been awake all night and your eyes are beginning to crust over. Suddenly the world becomes a bit heavy and I wish it was night time, dark and anonymous.
But at the same time I do manage to derive some level of sadistic pleasure from being awake at ridiculously early hours. I like seeing people dragging themselves to work early in the morning, when im safe in the knowledge that im gonna have a smoke, eat something nice and then collapse in my bed until I feel like getting out of it.

Woke up today and felt great. The Beatles woke me with their wonderful sounds and the sun was wearing his jazzing hat. Played with nunchucks for a bit, but after trying to learn the upswing elbow pass, and almost repeatedly managing to hit myself in the back of the head with a lump of wood for 20 mins I decided to give up, and instead have arguments with every device in my kitchen, eventually I didn’t feel the need to be irritated and had a rather lovely sandwich.

Does it have Vaults?

2004-10-08T00:24:50Z

Ive had the most amazing day. Everything seemed to be really fun and went really well. Indeed most unusual in the world of Tom.

First of all the day started with a highly enjoyable read of Harry potter: and the goblet of fire. Ive completely fallen in love with the potter universe ad cant get enough of it. Then I had a pretty good sleep. I rarely have good sleep, and while this wasnt great sleep, compared the normal sleepless nights ive been having recently, where I torture myself with my own thoughts, it was rather refreshing.

School then went on to be really good. For some reason all my lessons were quite fun, and politics was strangely interesting. My english homework was good as well. There was no corrections, just a "very good".
I managed to not fall asleep all day, which is really quite remarkable considering how bad ive been recently, and im not in trouble for sleeping all the time like I though I was. I thought the head was going royally rape me in the arse about it.
Then I had a really good chat with Conner, who normally I don’t talk to apart, from to say hello in the hallway. Lunch was also really fun as we reminisced about reading, and having Dave back made it significantly more interesting. Then after school having a fag I laughed the most I have in ages.
How is it physically possible to fit a whole nappy and 6 micro machines up your nose?!

Then the night id been dreading for the last week came. I had to go on a theatre trip in London for English, to see a Journeys End. I thought it would be really boring, and I would be there from 5:00 till 12:00, which I was really quite pissed off about. But it turned out to be the most fun id had in ages.
Originally I planned to sit on my own and sleep for the whole journey. But as I was getting on I saw Phoebe, who I went to primary school with and hardly ever speak to, but get on really well with, asked me to sit next to her. We had a really good conversation for the whole journey. It was really nice.
Then we got there and we had three quarters of an hour to spare, so we went o Pret a Manger, where I had a delicious Mocca, with people I never normally speak to and it was really fun.
Then we had to go and sit and watch the thing, after a brief bit of confusion over tickets that hadn’t been updated after a change of venue we ended up with excellent seats, possibly the best seats in the theatre.
Journeys End was amazing. With risk of sounding like a twat, I was actually really moved by it. It was really sad and emotional. I never feel like this and I was somewhat embarrassed when I realised no one else seemed to be the same. Luckily I saw Jacob who seemed to feel the same way, which was comforting. I then managed to smoke five fags on the three minute journey back to the coach. How I did this I do not know.
It was an amazing experience.
I feel like somewhat of an idiot now.

The journey home was highly pleasurable too. I invented a religion called Tomunism the name of which ive been meaning to put to use for time. We made bracelets things out of loose strands from Phoebes coat as a sigh of the religion. I was really upset when I had to get off and go home, I wanted to stay up all night and talk.
I also had a really nice bacon roll and kettle crisps which made me happy.

The only bad thing today was when halfway through Journeys end I needed a fag and went a bit mental when the interval came and I didn’t think I could go out to have one. Luckily we got out and I became sane again.
Now im at home listening to happy music and feeling really warm. Its weird, I feel far too happy, it doesn’t feel like me.
Its good though.

how do you dexcribe the tatse of licorice

2004-09-18T13:05:58Z

The “fucking bad cough” elevated to a whole new level on Thursday. I was literally having a coughing fit every minute. And it wasn’t just one cough; it was a nice string of nine or ten. Needless to say this started to piss me off, and sleeping which is normally quite a challenge had now became impossible due to constant coughing fits.

Luckily I discovered that smoking and masturbating alleviated the cough for a small period of time. Unfortunately there's only so long you can smoke and masturbate before fatigue sets in, and there's only so much abuse your respitory system can take before it begins to rebel. Other than that, I found no other ways of stopping the cough, and my attempts of trying to smoke while masturbating ended up being both unsuccessful and painful.

On a brighter note mes parents have just entered the town area to buy a digital camera that alough is for their purposes, will eventually end up being mine. They will only use to take pictures of “lovely views” anyway.

my best attempt at describing the taste of licorice is that it must alike that of molten tar. not that i have ever tasted tar...

Happy days

2004-09-15T21:32:31Z

Today, as was yesterday, was a most boring day. For the last two days I have not been going to school due to what can only be described as: "a fucking bad cough". Not going to school may sound great, and im not saying I don’t enjoy the luxurious lay-in, but it does bother me when I run out of things to do, and slowly begin to drive myself insane with boredom. Luckily Dave came over today which greatly improved what had already shaped up to be a dull day.
Im going to school tomorrow, even if it kills me.

In other news: I finished the first of the Harry Potter books today, and while I was somewhat skeptical at first (after all, its a kids book, right?) I thoroughly enjoyed it, and im am quite excited about the prospect of reading the second.